怎么又哭了。。

feel so useless.. always reminding miself to move on.. giving miself tons of reasons to let go..
finally went with feng to see the very impressive fortune teller on sunday.. and at that point in time i really felt i saw new light ahead.. finally had some direction to head towards..
but this week, every morning when i travel to work, the bus will drive past west coast park.. somehow it naturally makes the memories i keep trying to put away, very real again..

this evening, was travelling home.. i couldn't help but started to cry again on the bus.. it felt almost like i was reliving that memory.. must seem very strange.. but really couldn't pretend to be nonchalant anymore.. i really can't forget ma.. alot alot.. i think i will remember for the rest of mi life and i'm tired of running away from that.. gotta face it, live with it and move on..
i've got to realise that even if i don't change, people do.. and things just don't stay the same anymore :'(

i'm back to feeling lost again.. like wat all fortune tellers tell me.. beware of the word "love" (情) .. seems to be the only thing that i'm destined to lose to..

有时候笑只是为了不要哭。。。