it broke to bits..

moods probably really affect the status of a person's health.. im finally down with a cold.. probably partly mr TTS's fault.. makin everyone at work sick.. even LKW got his sore eyes on tues although we're all on course.. far away from TTS.. his germs followed us here to ISS.. -_-"

think i've never been more sad till now..
i asked what it meant cos i didn't wanna assume .. u have no idea what that did for me...
i thought i could really feel my heart breaking into bits.. :'( thank goodness the course ended and i could head home.. dunno if its xin li zuo yong or wat.. but my chest really hurt.. and got breathless.. *sigh* may have been the cold too.. got home, got on the phone with feng.. always helps cos she always laughs over what i tell her and it makes the pain more acceptable.. not that its funny.. but cos she can really understand..
i wished i could be more angry than sad.. cos anger is more constructive.. gives more energy to do stuff.. i tried writing a song.. hah.. could only do the melody though.. i heard the bass chords in my head but just sounded strange when i played it out.. argh!~ will try again this weekend.. prob could put in lyrics too this time. ^^

this morning i woke up feeling much better le.. not flu-wise.. just emotionally stronger ba.. but still aching inside.. guess there is a cost to bear when u become dependent on someone and this is just one of them.. this time, i'm really gonna get back up on my own ne. UM!

geez.. feng just tempted me to go drinking.. tonite cannot la.. hope she can make it tmr nite instead.. these girly nites out really help to take mi mind off stuff.. so much to look forward to. just need to find that energy again.. :)

yay! lunch break~~ ja ne!