2 days before chinese new year...

if i couldnt disappear, i wish i could at least be invisible..
having thoughts of changing jobs again but im just too indecisive to plan properly..

the feng shui master came yesterdae and after lookin around the house, we also had a small fortune telling session .. so weird.. he made mi sound kinda perfect, with a perfect life and all..
everything i've been doing seemed to fit correctly too.. to a life i might look forward to, but yet it seems too far away.. i still have no idea how to get there..

oh.. and i learnt too, that lines on ur palms just tell what's on ur mind.. wow.. i never realised that! and i gotta admit that its very possible.. cos it seems like palm readers always tell mi wat i wanna know, what i dun wanna know, and wat i don't know they don't know either..

today, everything fell apart. it really sucks.. like im suddenly being under attack.. i feel sucky.. had no appetite at mi long awaited-for buffet dinner.. was also the quietest of me ever.. till too many pple asked, had to put on a false front again.. im tired.. really tired...
please, don't backstab.. its too low..

as i was feeling down, i saw a friend's nick on msn.. that made me go cold inside..
chinese new year's coming.. i needa figure out what i want before the new year starts..
that leaves me with tomorrow~ how.. still very indecisive.. still too many things i want to do and many things i could do..
sometimes, no choice seems like a better option.. :P

*feeling down*