lucky.. mabbe not so...

waahh.. 2 tiring weeks.. got so much to update but very little life left to do it.. heh..

*~11th Jan, Wednesday~*

Started my Jap Beginners' class! very lucky ne.. originally couldnt get a place in the intensive (twice a week) class.. so had decided to do it on sundays.. once a week for a year but the lady called on the day itself to ask me if i was still interested to take the intensive class! so glad, cos now i just need half a year, and could probably continue with intermediate for the 2nd half.. *hope hope*
anyways.. class is pretty slow for now.. tryin to pick up the slangs Nakamura sensei mumbles to herself sometimes.. hehe.. senpai says it will be about halfway thru before i start learning more stuff so now its just lots of revision for me ^^

*~15th Jan, Sunday~*

the usual.. hehee K-Lunch!~ ;D was given a treat so tat was good~~ and the food was pretty nice.. thought mi singing sucked tho..
yup.. oh.. and managed to catch a bit of the SuperBand auditions when i was waitin for a bus home.. deepest impression was left by a pair of identical twins who named themselves, I-Twins -_-".. lame... but they were quite cute and both had good voices.. *envious* well they made it thru the auditions so let's see how they go~

*~17th Jan, Tueday~*

last minute, we were informed to go back to head office at AMK.. but kinda good timing too cos managed to drop by TechPoint to get mi Sentosa vouchers.. hehe worth more than $50.. but MediaCorp Publishing is really scheming ne.. gave mi vouchers for 1 person.. which obviously means if i ask someone else to go with, then we still gotta pay.. :~( but i really wanna go!!
think mi *Lucky CLOVER* is really workin, first jap class, then i win a lucky draw..
small stuff but pretty exciting still isn't it? ^^

*~19th Jan, Thursday~*

:P went for K-Student.. hehe.. also got a treat.. :P~ *lucky* been feeling down.. so needed to go vent mi frustrations.. but wasnt very helpful cos keep feeling mi singing's gettin worse :( felt kinda grossed out by mi own singing.. *sob*

*~21st Jan, Saturday (Today)~*

feelin really worn out.. not sure if i've been trying to suppress mi emotions too much.. but been pretty down and it's just gettin worse.. been late for work the past week cos every morning when i wake up, i gotta clear doggie's pee and poo.. (for a while i thought he finally learnt not to do it ANYWHERE) but so disappointed now.. after cleaning, still gotta feed him.. pat him a bit.. i alredi wake up earlier but still end up being late.. cos at nite will also play with him a bit.. so been sleepin kinda late.. worse.. back pains been keeping mi awake at nite.. painkillers aren't working anymore.. and no-one at home seems to understand tat my lack of sleep is making me grumpy, distorting my ability to speak and affecting my memory and alertness.. for 2 mornings i've been running home from the busstop cos i left my phone at home.. for a week, i've been unable to sleep well cos every turn i make, some joint will hurt..

finally, i lost it this morning.. argued with mi mom.. and she just attributed it to the doggie which pissed me off even more..

came home all tired after tuition, felt bad that i locked the dog in so i let him out, and AGAIN! he had to leave a pool of pee just where i had mopped in the morning.. scolded him, locked him in again.. till an hour later i let him out and AGAIN!!! he keeps doing it.. so now he's locked in..

very unhappy ne.. was watching Andy Lau's "Wait till you're older" and i burst into tears like an open tap.. (dad had to scold me for crying.. how very mean! ) anyway, i figured it was just something i do when i've got alot of stored up emotions in me..

just very tired.. wanna shed all mi responsibilities.. 但这是不可能的。。。。

“觉得被你遗忘的我， 一定会变得更坚强。。。。"