*~ Cherindipity Moments ~*

mi japanese intermediate class finally started.. for the first time i dun feel so much like a beginner anymore. Not that i'm pro, just that its the first time i'm doing an intermediate course and not another basic course. haha ;P~
Managed to get 241/250 for mi Basic exam. Break down...
Grammar - 98/100
Listening - 50 /50
Dictation - 47 /50 <-- this was expected.. :P
Oral - 46 / 50 <-- big disappointment.. din know i was tat bad at oral.. *sob*

Was listening to 933 the other morning.. on a "kimchi, sushi, fish & chips" day.. where they play english, jap, korean and mandarin songs.. and caught "Love me - Colin Raye".. so pai seh.. broke into tears on the bus listening to this song. Its like the 3rd time this has happened!

Did a "Do you follow your Heart or your Head" test earlier.. strange leh.. the results din really seem like a me thing..
always follow my heart.. but mabbe becoming a bit cynical now.. *shrug*

feng's getting her family car this week! So exciting.. she promised to bring mi and wangwang out some time~ :)

finally ran out of tears.. though the disappointment is still indescribable..
came all this way only to realise the rapport i thought was there, wasn't really there...
it appears that it had always been mi own wishful thinking..
like i directed the whole story.. *sigh*

its not like i will be able to recover more easily knowing this..
just more hurt ba.. haha..
wat to do?
i'm from a different world ma~

but always very thankful that i've still got very sweet friends lookin out for me :)
so even if mi mom's having a cold war with me, its bearable. lets just see who has a better stamina..

and im tempted to go for mi crab treat alredi.. can i can i??
really cant be bothered to take care of miself anymore u know..

still waitin to hit the bottom of this pit, so i can come back up again.. :)

ever noticed how pain on the inside is alot worse than pain on the outside?
at least there's something i can do abt external wounds..
but when its inside, i just feel so torn apart...

another sleepless night.. feeling suffocated..
i'd rather be stabbed a thousand times right now..
someone give me a hand?

Its been dark and cloudy for a long time now but no sign of rain. Guess it was just waitin to pour at the most untimely hour.

Its raining now, doesn't seem to be stopping.
Everytime.. this will happen. I'm so tired of being played by Fate. What's the lesson I should be learning here? Tat its always gotta be me. Cos i'm just vulnerable and easily hit by Pain.

It's funny, cos while it was still raining, i heard the song "I will survive". I really wonder if I would survive this time. Cos it hurts too much... I almost believe I shall never be happy again.

Tomorrow I have my long-awaited Japanese exam. What the hell.. i can't see a thing thru the droplets covering my eyes.

I think its gonna be rainy tomorrow, and the day after and for weeks to come.
Surely there is an easier way out. Someone has to invent a pill to help me forget.. lost some memory or something...

Sis just reminded mi of these shows we watched and rewatched when we were younger.
Our favourite was:
Once upon a giant (1988) ~ a movie directed by Trevor Evans
Plot Summary (this is all i found online..): Lester and Humphrey are the Royal Jester and Doctor, respectively, in a Kingdom terrorized by a mysterious giant whose presence is known only by his horrible voice and giant shadow. The giant takes the crown jewels which permit the Evil Prince Malokeo to convince the King to let him marry Princess Marigold. Marigold, horrified at the prospect and in love with Prince Daryl, turns to her friends Lester and Humphrey for help.

hehe funny plot but we loved the show so much. Taped it down and watched it a few times.. think we must have threw it while moving house.. :'( If anyone should have watched it.. you would remember the "YAWAD NA PU PU" for the carpet to land, and "UP UP AND AWAY" to get it to fly. Thats abt all that i remember~ :P

There was some other animation about an ant! and all we both remember is the how the ant looked.. and that's in mi head. um.. plus i remembered crying alot so it must have been touching! *sigh*~ and well.. guess from mi age, it should have been in the 80s too~ how how???? how to find?!

during mi search, i came by RAINBOW BRITE!! waahhhh i miss all these cartoons..

oh no~~ mi sis is distracting mi on mi last weekend to mug for mi Japanese exam!~ argh!